Back in college, my friends and I were taking one of those personality tests and we were all talking about if we were introverted or extroverted. Before I could answer for myself, a friend of mine suggested I was introverted. The rest of the table stared at him as if he'd suddenly grown a horn from his head. You see, I'm obnoxious. I am one of those loud, vulgar people that demands to be noticed. So we all eagerly waited, myself included for him to explain.
He said it was an act. That I make so much noise in hopes that people think that's all there is, and that they don't dig deeper. Amusingly enough, he was right. But I never really thought about the way I act as being different than the way I am.
The loud, crazy, funny, entertaining me is what I call "being on" and it can be exhausting. There are a handful of people that I've met in my life where being around them didn't require me to be "on". But most of the time being social is hard work.
If I were a Sim, my social bar would decrease very slowly. I enjoy spending time with myself. Sometimes this causes me to neglect my friendships, I get so lost in this hobby or that, and I forget to keep in contact with people.
I think about this now because one of my hobbies has put me in a situation where I have to talk to a room full of people, and deep down, I don't wanna, but at the same time I think I'll do a good job of it. It amused me that on some level I dread something I'm pretty sure I'll be good at.
He said it was an act. That I make so much noise in hopes that people think that's all there is, and that they don't dig deeper. Amusingly enough, he was right. But I never really thought about the way I act as being different than the way I am.
The loud, crazy, funny, entertaining me is what I call "being on" and it can be exhausting. There are a handful of people that I've met in my life where being around them didn't require me to be "on". But most of the time being social is hard work.
If I were a Sim, my social bar would decrease very slowly. I enjoy spending time with myself. Sometimes this causes me to neglect my friendships, I get so lost in this hobby or that, and I forget to keep in contact with people.
I think about this now because one of my hobbies has put me in a situation where I have to talk to a room full of people, and deep down, I don't wanna, but at the same time I think I'll do a good job of it. It amused me that on some level I dread something I'm pretty sure I'll be good at.
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